(May 24, 2012)
My husband leaves for work by 7:15 every morning...I was awake since he left, unable to go back to sleep.
Watching the clock, cleaning the house...doing everything i possibly could to make the time fly (or at least seem to go by faster!!!)
My apt. was at 12:20 so it wasn't TOO far away, the jitters were there though! My stomach turning in knots, random moments of jumping out of excitement...It was a lot to hold in! But the jumping was put to a halt quickly, as i had A LOT of liquid in my body for the ultrasound...including a few cups of juice to get my baby moving for the ultrasound.
My husband calls, and says he is on his way from work to get me for the apt! I was so excited i waited by the window for him! He got out of his uniform, and we left to see our baby.
On the way there we got talking names and stuff, he was telling me how he liked the name James Crew because his buddies middle name was crew, and he liked the sound of it...as did i.
Then of course i had my baby girls name picked out already Layla <3 and we decided on a middle name Adele. The whole way there I'm asking questions trying to find out if he wants a boy or girl more, and if he wanted to find out while i was on the table, or wait and find out alone.
As we are walking to the ultrasound room with the tech, i slow Andrew down, and said "babe. Tell me now if u want to find out in here, because if you don't then we need to tell her NOW!" he looks at me with this smile that said "...i want to see it and find out now...but i know you had a whole thing planned out to find out later..." i looked at him, smiled back and said "okay we will find out on the table so you can see for yourself what it is."
It was special for us. Andrew stood up and watched the Dr. measure out our baby, as it moved around in there, facing us, then my back, then us again...very very active baby! He was loving every second! The tech had to pause the screen in order to measure the baby it was so mobile! I remember her saying "oh good its laying still for us....and its gone again!"
She got all finished measuring and checking the baby's movements and such, then she asked us if we wanted to know what it was, as she showed us the screen. " Do you see those two lines" She asked... "That means its a girl!" I am going to confess, when she said "do you see those two..." i was thinking she was going to show me boy parts...so i was shocked at that moment to hear it was a girl! But as i watched my baby move, with Andrew holding my hand, it was amazing. I remember him saying "that's our Layla Adele" and i could tell he was already hooked. I cried a few tears at that point. Layla was something i had been praying for for years!
Ill take a second to explain what i mean. Andrew and I while dating, had a break-up point for a few months,. I was on birth control for ovarian cysts and the meds were making me extremely emotional and attached to Andrew (which was hard for him, considering i was 1300 miles away) so we broke up and i was DEVASTATED!!! plus i was weening myself off of the birth control because i had NO control over my body or emotions anymore. I went into about3 weeks of depression wanting Andrew and no one else...but realizing i didn't have Andrew anymore.
We went to my grandparents home for 4th of July, 2010 and i was just crying daily. I couldn't even sleep alone anymore without breaking into tears or panic.
One morning while there, i grabbed my teddy bear in my grandparents spare bedroom, and i lay down on the right side of the bed. There i looked at my bear, held it like a baby, and said "No matter who i end up marrying, one day i will have my baby Layla. My baby Layla is my new focus" So Layla is honestly my little miracle. She got me through some very dark times, before she was even born! I praise God for my baby Layla!!!!
After we found out what she was, we went to Denny's to tell his family--obviously they are excited to have a little girl to buy some cute clothes for! And then we went to Build-a-bear (Andrew and I did) to make our baby girl a bear of her own!!!! We stuffed it with love, did all the little steps and rubbing the heart and such (the bear has two shiny hearts, one from each of us). And then, daddy saw the "record your own sound" sign. "I want to do that!" he said. We go to the back hallway to record it (because the speakers in the store were playing music and such). He presses the button to record and says "Layla Adele, daddy loves you." in the sweetest daddy voice i could ever imagine. He is in love with our baby girl already! That made me SO happy to hear! (We only had him record, because we wanted Layla to have something with daddy's voice for in the future when he gets deployed, and isn't around to tell her he loves her when she needs to hear it.)
And then we bought it a G.I. Jane outfit, named it Adele, and took it home all excited to have it for when our Layla is born!!! All in all, It was an amazing day!!! (which did end with auntie Anne's and Starbucks-- YUM! lol)
At first from the sounds of it I didn't think your hubby was going with you! Glad he did. :) Eric tried acting calm when we found out but he was texting everyone right away excited as could be! So happy for you! How much baby stuff do you have as of now? I have a dresser, a rocking chair, and a few clothes. lol
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